Where I Am - February 13, 2011

Last year at this time I was 252. In March, my dad died. I had to start taking Concerta to be able to focus on work, and subsequently lost about 27 pounds without really trying. 

In November, I started dieting for real. Got down to about 215. Then, I started eating crappy again and then eating sugar again. So now I am about where I started in November.

And you know what? I think I am going to hang out here for a while. I actually like my boobs better where they are, and think I will just concentrate on trying to eat better (not perfect) and reengaging in my exercise. 

But the pressure of being on a diet is the sure fire way to make ME binge. I hope no one is disappointed in me, but hell, I can’t really worry about that right now.
 

fyandrogyny: I’m taking action.
Sure, I’m not the prettiest girl on the planet…but this is what I believe and I felt this was a creative way to prove my point, so if you want to diss my body feel free (to go fuck yourself).
I’m not a transgender person. I am just sick of gender stereotypes. I am genderqueer/androgenous. I crossdress and I just generally don’t give a fuck.
Reblog this motherfucker if you agree with my right to express myself without being constantly harassed (which I am).
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The Sugar is the LIFE!

I love sugar. I love it so much. And I am breaking it up with it again, scared that I will once again in the future succumb to its charms.

For some reason, life just seems sadder to me without sugar. I never crave sugar quite so badly as when I first give it up.

Maybe I should go have some anonymous sex!

The Sucky Part of Public Change

especially in terms of dieting, is when you fuck up, take a break, get ambivalent, all that jazz.

And then when certain people (you know who you are!) ask  you how it is going. 

I will tell you how it is going. Oddly.

I ate sugar again on Christmas Day, and have been on a roll ever since. Am I heroin addict with the white stuff? I just love it so much. When I am sad, sugar cheers me up. When I am bored, sugar entertains me. When I am horny …  well, sugar does not really help then. But usually, sugar solves a lot of problems for me.

Until of course, the solution creates problems of its own - insulin resistance, high blood pressure, general lethargy. 

So what to do. What to do. 

Am I just not ready? I was at 250 for a while, do I need to hang out at 225 for a while? 

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SHOCKING NEWS!!!

Did you know that if you stop paying attention to what you eat and just let yourself “wing it” while on a diet and eat out - you will gain weight back???

Who knew??

Meh - weight 218.8. Not really a surprise though. I ate a lot of crap this past week, even though I maintained my distance from my co-workers and their holiday treats.

In fact, I ate out Saturday night at PF Changs, and felt HORRIBLE later for it. 

Back to basics!!!

Woo hoo!! Today I weighed 215.8 - almost 2 pounds down from last week!!
And I did it eating really good, really healthy food. Last night I had a new dish, egglant parmesan!!
I sliced eggplant, wet it with egg white, dipped it in parmesan cheese, broiled it on each side for 4 min, and then topped with marinara and more cheese. YUM!

Woo hoo!! Today I weighed 215.8 - almost 2 pounds down from last week!!

And I did it eating really good, really healthy food. Last night I had a new dish, egglant parmesan!!

I sliced eggplant, wet it with egg white, dipped it in parmesan cheese, broiled it on each side for 4 min, and then topped with marinara and more cheese. YUM!

The Abominable Snowman loves South Beach style mashed potatoes - which are really steamed and mashed cauliflower. Unlike South Beach though, I use real cream and butter. 

The Abominable Snowman loves South Beach style mashed potatoes - which are really steamed and mashed cauliflower. Unlike South Beach though, I use real cream and butter. 

So - one month I have been doing this and things have become habit. I  eat egg whites every morning - habit. I eat a salad or leftovers  brought from home - habit. I cook dinner every night - habit. I am  pretty proud of myself.
I started this at 226.4, and one month later I am at 217.6. Nine pounds. Pretty good and pretty healthy. I am excited.
The weight loss has slowed to around a pound per week, which is good for healthy, maintainable weight loss.
It is not good however, for showy, impatient brats like me.
How bratty am I?

So - one month I have been doing this and things have become habit. I eat egg whites every morning - habit. I eat a salad or leftovers brought from home - habit. I cook dinner every night - habit. I am pretty proud of myself.

I started this at 226.4, and one month later I am at 217.6. Nine pounds. Pretty good and pretty healthy. I am excited.

The weight loss has slowed to around a pound per week, which is good for healthy, maintainable weight loss.

It is not good however, for showy, impatient brats like me.

How bratty am I?

Big Fat Mistake

Last night on FB I made a post about how people need to be gentle with fat people, because fat is their armor, and you can’t take away their armor until you give them a new one.

Yeah. Not everyone who is fat is fat because of that. BAD SKEPTIC!! I was generalizing from my own experience. Not cool.

I think I will stop talking about FAT PEOPLE and just talk about me.

I like that better anyway :)

In other news, this morning I had an omelet with spinach and artichoke dip filling. Very, very yummy!