Last year at this time I was 252. In March, my dad died. I had to start taking Concerta to be able to focus on work, and subsequently lost about 27 pounds without really trying.
In November, I started dieting for real. Got down to about 215. Then, I started eating crappy again and then eating sugar again. So now I am about where I started in November.
And you know what? I think I am going to hang out here for a while. I actually like my boobs better where they are, and think I will just concentrate on trying to eat better (not perfect) and reengaging in my exercise.
But the pressure of being on a diet is the sure fire way to make ME binge. I hope no one is disappointed in me, but hell, I can’t really worry about that right now.
fyandrogyny: I’m taking action.
Sure, I’m not the prettiest girl on the planet…but this is what I believe and I felt this was a creative way to prove my point, so if you want to diss my body feel free (to go fuck yourself).
I’m not a transgender person. I am just sick of gender stereotypes. I am genderqueer/androgenous. I crossdress and I just generally don’t give a fuck.
Reblog this motherfucker if you agree with my right to express myself without being constantly harassed (which I am).
(Submitted by iwannatakeyoutoagaybar) I concur.
I love sugar. I love it so much. And I am breaking it up with it again, scared that I will once again in the future succumb to its charms.
For some reason, life just seems sadder to me without sugar. I never crave sugar quite so badly as when I first give it up.
Maybe I should go have some anonymous sex!
especially in terms of dieting, is when you fuck up, take a break, get ambivalent, all that jazz.
And then when certain people (you know who you are!) ask you how it is going.
I will tell you how it is going. Oddly.
I ate sugar again on Christmas Day, and have been on a roll ever since. Am I heroin addict with the white stuff? I just love it so much. When I am sad, sugar cheers me up. When I am bored, sugar entertains me. When I am horny … well, sugar does not really help then. But usually, sugar solves a lot of problems for me.
Until of course, the solution creates problems of its own - insulin resistance, high blood pressure, general lethargy.
So what to do. What to do.
Am I just not ready? I was at 250 for a while, do I need to hang out at 225 for a while?
Did you know that if you stop paying attention to what you eat and just let yourself “wing it” while on a diet and eat out - you will gain weight back???
Meh - weight 218.8. Not really a surprise though. I ate a lot of crap this past week, even though I maintained my distance from my co-workers and their holiday treats.
In fact, I ate out Saturday night at PF Changs, and felt HORRIBLE later for it.
Back to basics!!!
Woo hoo!! Today I weighed 215.8 - almost 2 pounds down from last week!!
And I did it eating really good, really healthy food. Last night I had a new dish, egglant parmesan!!
I sliced eggplant, wet it with egg white, dipped it in parmesan cheese, broiled it on each side for 4 min, and then topped with marinara and more cheese. YUM!
The Abominable Snowman loves South Beach style mashed potatoes - which are really steamed and mashed cauliflower. Unlike South Beach though, I use real cream and butter.
So - one month I have been doing this and things have become habit. I eat egg whites every morning - habit. I eat a salad or leftovers brought from home - habit. I cook dinner every night - habit. I am pretty proud of myself.
I started this at 226.4, and one month later I am at 217.6. Nine pounds. Pretty good and pretty healthy. I am excited.
The weight loss has slowed to around a pound per week, which is good for healthy, maintainable weight loss.
It is not good however, for showy, impatient brats like me.
How bratty am I?
Last night on FB I made a post about how people need to be gentle with fat people, because fat is their armor, and you can’t take away their armor until you give them a new one.
Yeah. Not everyone who is fat is fat because of that. BAD SKEPTIC!! I was generalizing from my own experience. Not cool.
I think I will stop talking about FAT PEOPLE and just talk about me.
I like that better anyway :)
In other news, this morning I had an omelet with spinach and artichoke dip filling. Very, very yummy!